balancingminds: (not happy)
[personal profile] balancingminds
Charles rolled into the Bar feeling tired, everything took longer than he expected and he hated it. Sometimes he could feel the pity rolling off of people and he wanted to yell but he knew that wouldn't help. He would just keep doing what needed to be done and not think about what was missing until the night was dark and the house was quiet.

When he arrived, he moved his chair towards the fire and ordered a stiff drink of Scotch which he stared at along with the fire.

Date: 2014-09-28 03:57 am (UTC)
runningred: (Default)
From: [personal profile] runningred
Jay watches quietly from the other side of the bar. Curious and worried for his friend but no pitying. Not till he finds out what's going on.

He crossed to the bar and orders a full bottle of Charles' Scotch and another glass before joining him by the fire. "Want company?"

Date: 2014-09-28 04:04 am (UTC)
runningred: (Default)
From: [personal profile] runningred
Jay sits down next to him and pours himself a glass, topping up Charles' glass. "Been a while for you?" He asks mildly. "You look a weather beaten since the last time I saw you."

Date: 2014-09-28 04:09 am (UTC)
runningred: (Default)
From: [personal profile] runningred
"Looks like it didn't go so well?" Jay prompts gently, willing to pull back if Charles isn't okay to talk.

Date: 2014-09-28 04:17 am (UTC)
runningred: (Default)
From: [personal profile] runningred
He rests his hand where Charles can reach it if he wants or needs the physical contact. "Erik?" His shields are down, his mind trusting and open to his friend.

Date: 2014-09-28 04:25 am (UTC)
runningred: (Default)
From: [personal profile] runningred
"Ah." The self denial underlying Charles' words catch Jay like a punch.

"How bad? And feel free to tell me to go fuck myself if you don't want to talk about it."

Date: 2014-09-28 04:41 am (UTC)
runningred: (Default)
From: [personal profile] runningred
Jay refrains from reacting to the wince. He wants to reach for Charles, to gather him up in his arms and hold him close but he isn't sure what Charles wants or needs. And he knows better than to push.

"Did I ever tell you about my sister Babs? She got shot in the spine. By the asshole who killed me. She recovered her movement after a couple of years but... she ended up with PTSD - shell-shock I guess they'd call it when you're from, and severe survivor's guilt."

He takes a long drink of his scotch, savouring it a moment. "It wasn't the injury that fucked her up, it was me. Because she lived and recovered and I died. She knows now, that I came back but... she can't even look at me, can't talk to me. I wasn't the reason Babs got hurt but I am the reason she still hurting so I don't blame her for not being able to deal with me."

"Guess what I'm trying to say is it's okay, not to be okay with someone. Even if they didn't mean to hurt you. The hurt's still real."

Date: 2014-09-28 04:55 am (UTC)
runningred: (Default)
From: [personal profile] runningred
"You still love him." It isn't framed as a question. "Then I hope you do get to play chess with him again." And he means it, even if he wishes Charles' heart was free to move on from someone who has brought him so much pain.

He shakes his head and throws Charles a careless smile. "What the hell are you apologising to me for? I'm the one depressing you with my family horror stories."

Date: 2014-09-28 05:05 am (UTC)
runningred: (Default)
From: [personal profile] runningred
"Then it's a good thing you have a drinking partner with considerable personal experience with being a mess." He throws another careless smile.

But you know me, Charles. You know if you need anything, I'm not going to say no. And I'm not going to hold it against you if you say no. Whatever you need and however long it takes, I'm going to be here.

Date: 2014-09-28 05:13 am (UTC)
runningred: (Default)
From: [personal profile] runningred
Jay catches his hand as he sets the glass down, holding it between his own. "You've been there for me at some of the darkest times in my life. Don't tell me I'm offering too much when it's no less than you've done for me."

Date: 2014-09-28 05:22 am (UTC)
runningred: (Default)
From: [personal profile] runningred
Jay brings his hand to his lips softly, trying to project to Charles a sense of comfort and acceptance.

And then the careless smile is back. "Do you want something to eat or are we going for another bottle of scotch? I've haven't gotten roaring drunk since the last time I went back to Gotham."

Date: 2014-09-28 05:28 am (UTC)
runningred: (Default)
From: [personal profile] runningred
Jay laughs. "Somehow I expected you to be one of those rowdy frat boys who ended up swinging naked from some important statues singing God save the Queen."

Date: 2014-09-28 05:34 am (UTC)
runningred: (Default)
From: [personal profile] runningred
"I'd invite you back to my world to go out but you don't want to be in a bar with me when I get like that. I tend to start fights just for the fun of it."

Date: 2014-09-28 05:41 am (UTC)
runningred: (Default)
From: [personal profile] runningred
"Good thing we're drinking here then." He flashes a grin. "Even I'm not suicidal enough to try it with the bouncers here."

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-09-28 05:46 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-09-28 05:55 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-09-28 06:05 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-09-29 02:23 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-09-29 03:20 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-09-29 03:45 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-09-29 03:52 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-09-29 04:05 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-09-29 04:13 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-09-29 04:27 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-09-29 04:35 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-09-29 04:43 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-09-29 04:51 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-09-29 05:05 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-09-29 05:16 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-09-29 05:21 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-09-29 05:48 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-09-29 11:06 pm (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-09-30 12:39 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-09-30 02:02 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-09-30 03:15 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-09-30 04:49 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-09-30 05:06 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-09-30 05:25 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-01 03:37 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-01 06:36 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-02 08:01 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-06 04:37 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-06 04:44 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-06 04:49 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-06 05:14 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-06 05:31 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-06 05:38 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-06 05:42 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-06 05:51 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-06 11:40 pm (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-07 12:41 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-07 12:49 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-07 12:56 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-07 01:02 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-07 01:09 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-07 06:33 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-07 06:52 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-07 07:02 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-07 07:13 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-07 07:25 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-07 07:30 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-07 07:35 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-07 07:42 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-07 09:23 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-08 01:52 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-08 02:07 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-08 07:41 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-08 09:38 pm (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-08 11:29 pm (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-08 11:50 pm (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-08 11:57 pm (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-09 12:08 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-09 12:19 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-09 12:37 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-09 12:48 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-09 12:55 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-09 01:07 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-09 01:17 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-09 01:33 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-09 01:50 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-09 02:09 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-09 02:19 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-09 03:57 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-09 06:28 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-09 06:39 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-09 06:50 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-09 07:09 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-09 07:15 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-09 07:26 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-09 09:35 pm (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] runningred - Date: 2014-10-09 09:56 pm (UTC) - Expand

Profile

balancingminds: (Default)
Charles Xavier

July 2017

S M T W T F S
      1
234567 8
9101112131415
16171819202122
23242526272829
3031     

Most Popular Tags

Page Summary

Style Credit

Expand Cut Tags

No cut tags
Page generated Sep. 24th, 2017 06:54 am
Powered by Dreamwidth Studios